Thursday, January 14, 2016

Rachel's Orifices

The following is the next part of the novel, Black Hole.  For those who came in late, here's the synopsis of the previous parts:

Kailash Public School in Delhi is donated to Devlok Ashram by the owner, Sitaram Rana.  Devlok is founded by Kailash Baba whose nondescript quest found its fulfilment in spirituality.  Two of his prominent assistants will be Amarjeet Boprai, his nephew whose inability to master English literature is motivation enough for him to turn against the British government and then find a better opportunity in Devlok, and Mahendra Rana whose discontent in personal life is his spiritual trigger. Carrying the light of his Lord Jesus Christ, Aaron Matthews also arrives at Devlok from London.  In addition to the ambition of bringing the light to pagans, Aaron also was driven by an increasing distance from his wife, Rachel.

Kailash Baba differed from the swami as much as the north and south poles differed from each other.  Very alike and yet very different.  Where Aaron Matthews had seen rings of beedi smoke, there now he saw a halo of spirituality.  The kam-krodh-lobh-moh-ahankar that the Baba spoke about resonated well with the cardinal evils that Matthews had been taught in the theological seminary.  The flesh was the root of all evil.  The flesh and its orifices.  The flesh desires what is contrary to the spirit, and the spirit what is contrary to the flesh.  The flesh and the spirit.  Rachel and Aaron.  Satan and God.  Why did God create man in reeking flesh with its obnoxious orifices that greedily open themselves to the world?  I know that in my flesh dwells no good thing.  The Law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin.  I do that which I should not because of the flesh and its orifices. 

Am I running away from the flesh and its orifices?  Aaron Matthews asked himself.  The ecstasies that Rachel’s flesh and its orifice had proffered him were still fresh in his consciousness.  What was he actually running away from?  Rachel or her orifice?   Both.  Her orifice sprouted simultaneous nostalgia and revulsion in him.  She had become the Eve who connived with Satan and held out to him the tempting fruit of knowledge.   She could never understand the wisdom of the folly that Paul spoke about.  The message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.  The crucified Christ was folly to Rachel, a stumbling block that she built up with her intellect and its insatiable craving for rational knowledge.  How far can the rational faculty carry one?   Reason belongs to the body, the flesh.  Reason and the flesh.  Satan’s instruments.  Saint Augustine had learnt it after wallowing copiously in the delights of both the flesh and the intellect.  “What is wrong with us?” Augustine wailed to his friend.  “Uneducated people are rising up and taking heaven by force while we, with all our high culture and without any heart – see where we roll in the mud of flesh and blood.”  Rachel had no heart.  She was just a brain.  She cerebrated, therefore she existed.  She was also her orifices.  They were her doors to her paradise.  But the neither the intellectual profundities conquered by the brain nor the paradises arrived at through the orifices satisfied the soul.  The soul’s hunger is infinite.  Our souls are restless until they rest in God. 

“Your God is an eternal hunger,” she mocked him.  “He needs infinite love and that’s why He created human beings.  I wonder how He survived before he created Adam and Eve and their offspring.”

Augustine came to Aaron’s assistance.  “He was preparing hells for people who inquire into intellectual profundities.”

“Oh, Augustine,” her cynicism overflowed.  “I’m glad you’ve read something other than the Bible.  I hope you also read the part where he says that when he prayed to God for chastity and continence he also added the wish that his prayer should not be answered too quickly.  He was afraid that God might too rapidly snatch from him the delights of lust.  You know what his real problem was?  Sheer lack of clarity.  He thought that the remedy for lust was chastity whereas it is love.  He thought that faith was the remedy for doubt whereas it is inquiry.  He made God a panacea for all the agony in his soul and thus capitulated intellectual honesty.”

Late have I loved Thee, O Lord.  Augustine had lamented from the depth of his heart.  Yet this woman, this feeble creation of God, personification of orifices, was accusing the divine patron of lack of love. 



  1. The tension between heart and rationality well brought out. Is Rachel just 'brain' and no 'heart'? Isn't the 'spirit' of Aaron a wide open orifice too? Can demarcation be that neat?

    1. There are no neat demarcations in actual life. But people like Aaron create them. Religions thrive on them.

  2. Was missed the last episode. I'd suggest you to add the link to previous episode at the top. This will help us, if we miss one. As it is, I'll have to dig in the past notifications. :D

    It's going awesome and lovely. Awaiting next events to transpire.

    1. The links are there on the right panel: Blog Archive

    2. Oh! It's not seen in the mobile version.

    3. True. I realised that a little late.


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