Fiction
Driving
is what I do when I want to get away from. From what? From whom?
Well, you see, I’m sort of an
escapist. I would get away from anything. From my job that I am incredibly
passionate about. From my home which is the only paradise I can ever afford. From
my wife, whom I love a lot and who loves me even more.
Well, you know, I’m that sort of a
disgruntled old man who is unable to shed his narcissism in spite of all the
bangs and bashes it has received for decades from well-meaning self-righteous
religious people.
I suppose you must have understood by
now what kind of a man I am. I am old. I am disgruntled according to those
around me especially the religious sort of people. And, if you ask me, I don’t really care for
other people which means I should be an ascetic.
I get overwhelmed, rarely though, by
a desire to know what lies beneath the banality and morbidity of human life. That
is what asceticism is about, I guess. My wife thinks I’m a bit cranky and hence
she doesn’t care for my supernatural longings. She goes to church every Sunday
and prays. I don’t go to any religious place to pray. But we, my wife and I,
have come to an understanding that we are both free to practise spirituality in
our own personal ways. It is very seldom you will find a woman who will allow
her man to believe in a god different from hers even though the god is nothing
more than a weekly hobby for her.
My weekly hobby is a drive. And
that’s how I met this man who is apparently an ascetic. He lives in a hut in a
forest.
While driving my calf muscle
developed a cramp. Left or right, I don’t remember and I suppose it doesn’t
matter. Left and right are like Tweedledee and Tweedledum now. What matters really is that the cramp is an indication of my growing
old. I don’t want to grow old. So I stopped my car on the side of the road and
walked into the forest just to challenge some wild elephant or tiger and thus
prove that I am still young. Nowadays a lot of elephants and tigers appear all
over our towns and highways in Kerala. We, homo sapiens, ate up their habitats
and they are coming back to reclaim them. History is vindictive, you know. If
you don’t know, ask our Prime Minister who has won a third term of royalty.
I know you will now smirk at my
notorious obsession with our prime minister. Don’t be too harsh while you judge
me, my dear reader. The prime minister has a role in this adventure of
mine.
Wild elephants and tigers didn’t
attack me though I went on and on into the forest. It was an ascetic that
scared me.
He didn’t mean to scare me. I felt
scared. This is called maya, illusion. If you want to know more about maya,
read the Brihadaranyka Upanishad. Or sit in meditation on the Vivekananda Rock
in Kanyakumari with a score of media cameras all around.
Who would expect a homo sapiens in
the thick of a forest? I mean, aren’t they, the homo sapiens, supposed to be meditating
in the middle of some ocean or on top of Mount Kailash?
This guy, Devendra his name is he
tells me, was inspired by our prime minister. “Such a spiritual person he is,
our prime minister,” Devendra tells me. Well, I hope you understood that I met
Devendra in the deep of a forest that I was wandering through hoping to
encounter a wild elephant or a tiger.
The media, both print and electronic,
tell us about these wild elephants and tigers that come to the civilised world
of homo sapiens. What I come across when I search the wilds is this homo
sapiens who says he has become spiritual following the example of our prime
minister who sat in contemplation on Mount Kailash and the Vivekananda Rock.
“But prime minister ji went back to
his palace after all those dramas,” I said.
“I have no palace to go back to,” the
homo sapiens in the wilds says.
This sad homo sapiens has a wife at
home. Nobody else. Both his sons were in Canada. “I renounced my wife,” the
homo sapiens tells me. “Gods are much easier to live with.”
I understood. You understood too, I
know.
I took my hip flask and sucked in the
cheap brandy that was already mixed with enough water to dilute the spirits
that suck a GST of 300%.
“Can I have a suck?” Homo Sapiens
asks.
Homo sapiens is thirsty for diluted brandy and he says he renounced his wife. Who is the escapist? The narrator or this HS or PM ji?
ReplyDeleteThis is what I wonder too.
DeleteHari Om
ReplyDeleteNever mind illusion, first deal with delusion! YAM xx
No doubt.
DeleteToo bad you didn't meet up with a tiger. But at least you got some conversation out of it.
ReplyDeleteTigers are very choosy, it seems.
DeleteIdentity crisis!
ReplyDeleteThat too.
DeleteThe openness to appreciate freedom and the freedom, to appreciate the differences is the algorithm of spirituality.
ReplyDeleteThat's a profound view. How many people arrive at that level of spirituality, I wonder.
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