It’s been a
rough ride from my youth until this day when my hairs have greyed and smiles
are warped. Very few things went
right. And the wrongs have been exacting
teachers. They have taught me that most
stories do not have fairy tale endings.
Very few poems rhyme or follow rhythm.
The most beautiful smiles may be sustained by terribly battered
hearts.
Unpredictability
is the essence of life. Which sperm out
of the millions ejaculated gets to fertilise the egg? What all genes do the chromosomes carry from each partner? How do they configure their permutations and
combinations? There begins the story of
life’s unpredictability.
Once you are
pushed out into the world, unpredictability is the ruler. From your parents to your boss(es), from the
priest in the church to the politician on the throne, from the fellow next door
to the colleague on the next seat, there’s a whole range of permutations and combinations
impinging upon you every moment of your life.
Personally, I
was an utter failure dealing with a lot of those kaleidoscopic punches and
pinches. The more you fail, the more the
world loves to defeat you. Finally you
bow out and leave the stage to the more spectacular actors.
Perhaps that
bowing out was the most unpredictable moment in my life. It happened a year and a half back, thanks to
a godman and his women who usurped the stage on which I played my ineluctable
drama. It was not at all about the loss of a
job. It was about villainy masquerading
as religious holiness. It was about
subhuman manipulations and nefarious gambits.
It was about
the nausea that Jean-Paul Sartre portrayed in the character of Antoine
Roquentin. Some experiences hurl you
into a vacuum where you have to redefine yourself and start all over again.
No, I’m not
blaming anyone. I understand that that’s
how the world is. The drawback is
mine. So I drew back. From the stage. The only problem now is that the very mention
of a godman makes me retch.
PS. This was provoked by Indispire Edition 142: Life is unpredictable !! Write about your
unpredictable moment which changed your life !! #UnpredictableMoment
Wow! It takes real courage for a man to write this. My salute to you. Sir, your English vocabulary is also too strong. It must have taken years of effort to develop your language skills. Appreciations!!
ReplyDeleteThanks, friend, for the appreciation. I've been an English teacher for a long time :)
DeleteI remember your post in the two lady teachers.
ReplyDeleteI like 'Most stories do not end in fairy tales'
Those two ladies have left some indelible marks in my being. They can be proud of that :)
DeleteYou are a great writer sir. I became a fan of your writing the day when I read your post on narcissism. Thank you for sharing your experiences. :)
ReplyDeleteI feel humbled, Abhimanyu.
DeleteUnpredictability is the name of life....but unpleasant unpredictability is what stirs one deeply....The mental torture you must have suffered has only made you stronger.....something the 'villains' of your life might find hard to digest....
ReplyDeleteThe villains have remarkable digestive systems. They swallow anything from gods to crap...
DeleteYou are a great writer with strong opinions
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