In one of his novels, O V
Vijayan illustrates destiny with the story of a bullock. The bullock was one of
the two used to draw a cart. This bullock was always tied on the right side of
the cart and hence got most of the whiplashes the driver being right-handed.
The bullock was not happy with his destiny and envied his counterpart on the
left side.
I added a twist to Vijayan’s
story while discussing destiny once. The bullock prayed for a change; it wished
to be on the left side of the cart. God answered the prayer. The bullock cart
was sold and the new owner tied our bovine hero on the left side of the cart.
But his destiny didn’t alter. The new driver was left-handed.
You can’t escape the whip if
it is in your destiny. Some whips are indeed ineluctable parts of your destiny.
Your genes, for example. There are catastrophes that strike you with divine
vengeance. Even your government can be your destiny with its policies that may
hamstring you.
As a young man, I poohpoohed the
notion of destiny. When one of my English professors interpreted Thomas Hardy’s
Mayor of Casterbridge in fatalist terms, I protested saying that Michael
Henchard (the protagonist) had brought about his damnation himself through his
actions and fate had little to do with it.
Life taught me otherwise
eventually. The hubris of my youth received blow after blow and the very
foundations of my aplomb crumbled. My self-assurance never returned. Not to
this day. My hand trembled every time I had to put my signature anywhere. I
didn’t trust even my signature for about two decades.
Life does that to a lot of
people. Today I live a secluded life in a village avoiding meeting people as
far as possible. This solitude is destiny’s gift to me.
But I know deep within that
much of that destiny was my own making. My hubris was mine, wasn’t it? My
attitudes were mine, weren’t they? The problem is how much of all that is
within your control. How much is contributed by forces beyond your control? The
chromosomes that conspired to make you were not your choice. The people who
appointed themselves as your guardian angels were not the best of your
circumstances. Still much could have been different if I had different
outlooks.
Our attitudes forge our mental
landscape to a great extent. Not everything is destined. A lot depends on what
you do with the people and events that happen to you without your choice. As
some great guy said, the cards you are dealt are your destiny. But you have the
freedom to play the game in your own way.
I learnt that a bit late. But
I thought I should tell this so that those who still have the time to play
better games may benefit. This opportunity to tell – yeah, that is destiny’s gift
for me.
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