Guest Post
Susan Stephen is a former student of mine who found a mention in my previous post without her name. She's studying Developmental Social Work in Canada. She sent me a short story of hers this morning and I think it deserves a wider readership. It's the story of a young Indian student in Canada, like the author herself. The pain of homesickness, occasional instances of racism, and the usual hardships of an overseas student are all poignantly portrayed in the story without ever losing touch with the essential tenderness of human relationships. There's touch of professionalism in the story. May Susan mature into a prominent writer of good literature. Susan Stephen
A Warm Winter Day
It
was a warm January morning, the warmest, she thought. January mornings back
home in India were warmer than this, yet she found today a nice day. She took a
hot bath and had a sandwich for breakfast.
While getting ready for college, she thought maybe she should pack
something for lunch as she was going straight to work after college. But her
laziness took over; she didn’t pack anything for lunch; in fact, she worked
empty stomach that day. Most days, she couldn’t find time to cook after college
and work, so working on an empty stomach wasn’t anything new to her. She works
as a cashier at a local convenience store. She loved working there; the usual customers
were nice and friendly to her, and she often enjoyed having a conversation with
them. There were a few who were rude and some racist, but she was good at
dealing with them.
She
took the bus to the college, and on the way, she FaceTimed her mother; for her,
her mother is nothing short of a best friend. They always shared everything,
but she always made sure that she never told her mom that she missed her
cooking; after all, she used to make fun of them. She always thought of her
mom’s cooking and how delicious it really was; even today, she thought of her
mom’s appam and stew which were her favourite breakfast. It has only been a few
months since she left India for higher studies in Canada, and homesickness is
challenging to take over as her BFF. But she stood strong. Whenever she got
time, she cooked; she adores cooking, but she sucks at time management, and she
never fails to point to the Canadian bus timing as the culprit for her lacking.
As much as she enjoyed talking to her mom, she hated it that much; it reminded
her of the good times she spent as a teenager at home, the nutmeg trees, her
pets, her friends, everything. How easy her life was, not worrying about money,
work, and taxes, being a true teenager. After coming to Canada, she had to say
bye to all of it at the age of 18. The bus reached the last stop, the college;
she said bye to her mom and got off the bus.
While
walking to her class, she thought, “Does every international student struggle
the same?”
“Probably
yes. “
“Why
do we pay 4 to 5 times that of a domestic student for the same services? Okay,
I get it; I am an international student, but isn't four times a little too much?”
With
all these questions, she walked to her class, where the other international and
domestic students were waiting for the professors to read from the PPT.
Today,
she had only one class, and after that, she took the bus to work; she always
made sure she was at least 15 minutes early so she could take her sweet time
changing her clothes and boots to work clothes. It's only been two months since
she started working there, so work friends were too far from her dreams. After
changing into her work clothes, she walked to the cash to punch in. The shift
was going all good, but something started to feel off; she wondered why. Today
is not that bad, so why? Homesick? She ignored her feelings and continued to
smile at every customer who came to her cash and asked how their day was; some
complained, and some were enthusiastic to share their good day. She always
appreciated those who took their time to talk to her; she had learned many
things and facts about Canada from her customers. They probably liked talking
to her too; she was a noncomplainer, always liked to listen to their stories,
and was expressive. But she has always noticed that no one was interested in
knowing her story; they ask her how her day was out of courtesy, and she always
replies with ‘good.’
She
always worked 4 hours, well that’s the hours the manager always gave her. The
first two hours of the shift felt longer than usual. Her co-worker came to take
her off for her fifteen-minute break. She gladly gave her cash to her co-worker
and walked towards the punch clock. Today, she was the closing cashier.
So,
she decided to buy some chicken during her break because there wouldn't be
anyone to cash her out at the end of her shift. The chicken the store sold was
of good quality; she often bought meat from the store. Moreover, she had ten
percent employee discounts, too. “Maybe I'll cook chicken curry like grandma’s
and her ghee rice; my roommates do like ghee rice, a little treat for them,”
she thought. She lived in a shared home with four other girls from India,
China, Nigeria, and the Philippines respectively. They were the sweetest,
kindest girls out there. They looked after each other and cared like siblings,
excluding the physical fights. Their favourite time in the house is when they
cook together; mostly, they cook for themselves, but once every month, one of
the girls cooks for everyone, a little tradition of theirs, and it was her turn
this month.
She
switched on her mobile data while walking toward the meat aisle; she kept it
off at work because it was a waste of data and a distraction. As soon as she
switched on her data, she received a voice call from her sister, “Hmm... Chechi,
calling at this hour?” She picked up the call, “What do you want? I’m working.
Actually, you called at the right time; I'm on my break.” She heard nothing
from the other side of her phone.
“Hello?”
“Achu,”
her sister called.
“Yeah”
“Ammamma
is no more.”
Her
eyes filled with tears. She stood there for a second, and she looked around.
There were customers everywhere. She took a long breath and said, “Ah, when was
it?”
“A
few moments back.”
“What
about the funeral?”
“Haven’t
decided.”
“Ah,
did you call Kichu chechi?”
“No,
are you okay?”
“Yeah,
I’m okay, I’m at work, there’s only five more minutes left for my break, call
everyone and inform, text me the details, tell Appa I won't be able to make it,
of course, he knows that but still tell him.”
“Yeah.”
“Okay,
bye.”
She
looked around; there was no one that she knew—someone to tell that her grandma
passed away.
For
her, grandma was someone special, someone who always supported her crazy
dreams, someone who was always there even in the absence of her BFF mom. She
looked at the chicken, “Aaah, ammamma’s chicken curry.” She thought. She missed
home more than ever. She felt lonely, lonelier than before. She wanted to cry,
but she couldn’t. She felt like it would be a waste to cry. Waste of what? If
you were to ask, she didn't know, time? Tears? Good mascara? Maybe she wasn’t
processing the news. What is there to process? She knew she was seeing her
grandma for the last time when she was saying bye to her before the ride to the
airport. She knew it was the last warm hug and wet kiss on the cheeks, but deep
inside, she wished for it not to be the last, and as always, her wish didn’t
come true; her grandmother was gone. She
walked past the aisle thinking about all the good times she had with her
grandma, like when they mocked her mom’s cooking, when they hid from Appa after
stealing his phone, and when they walked home from church, when she told her
bedtime stories. When she fell, her grandma would put some ointment and say
magic spells, and they would laugh together. All memories were coming back. Her
throat started drying; she took a sip from her bottle and punched back in. She went
and took off her co-worker.
Now
her cash was empty for some reason; she looked around; the store was empty now.
Where is everyone? Every other cashier started cleaning their cash, and one
already punched out. She saw a customer
walk towards her cash, and she smiled. As soon as she started to ask how his
day was, he said, “Fucking Indian, I need someone else to put me through; you
guys are everywhere; I chose this store because it's all white; you guys have
got into this store too.”
It
was true that the store only had Canadian people working for them;
surprisingly, she was the only one who was foreign or someone who was not
Canadian. She always wondered why. After some convincing, he did come through
her cash, but he was rude. She didn't utter any word throughout the order; she
didn’t even wish him good night. She always wished good night even to the
rudest customer. But she smiled all through the order.
A
few more customers came through her cash after he left. She smiled and talked
to them. Later at night, she closed her cash, cleaned it, and punched out. “A
slow night,” she murmured to herself. She walked to the locker room and changed
back into normal clothes. She looked at the mirror, smiled, made a funny face,
and laughed at herself. She lived right across the street, only a 15-minute
walk to her apartment. It was very dark, but it didn’t scare her; she put on
her headset and played her favourite songs. The night was warm for a January
night in Canada, “the warmest,” she thought. She started walking to her
apartment. Halfway through, her eyes started to get filled with tears, she
cried. She cried till the tip of her beautiful brown nose turned red on the
warm January night.
❤️🥺👏🏻
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ReplyDeleteRama kashyap- Susan’s story touched my heart . A true depiction of the life of students in a foreign country
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ReplyDeleteHari OM
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing Susan's writing with us... poignant and impressive. YAM xx
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ReplyDeleteA very sad story.
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